I can’t believe I leave London in 15 days and every time I think about it I cry a little. If I’m alone the crying happens out loud. If I’m in public I can manage to hold it in. Not sure if that will continue my last week here. I might just be a walking tear duct as I wander the streets of London…. ;)
But that brings me to the last prompt for this challenge: to write about where I see myself in five years.
|Obviously contemplating the future…|
And I can honestly say that I have no idea where I will be in five years, let alone in one year for that matter. But I’m embracing it.
I haven’t made up my mind with what my grand life plan is. Or even what I want to do after I graduate. There is a big question mark in the air that constantly floats around me. And that used to scare me (sometimes it still does), but it also means that I can do anything I put my mind to. In middle school, I knew I wanted to go to school out of state and I did that. In high school, I discovered I wanted to go to Davidson and I did that. While at Davidson I discovered I wanted to spend a year of my university career in a different city. And I did that. And fell in love (with London).
But now I don’t know what I want my life plan to be anymore. I know I want to see the world and be happy. I know I want to make more friends and cultivate the friendships I already have. I want to continue blogging or writing. I want to keep learning and finding new beauty in the world. And who knows where these desires will take me. Hopefully one day back to London or England or France. Hopefully all around the world.
Being the anxious person I am, all forms of uncertainty make me panic. But I know that I am no longer as afraid of uncertainty as I was before. I embraced it when I went to university, when I went to Paris and when I went to London. And I know that I just need to keep on embracing it to really appreciate everything there is in this world. And especially to figure out my path in life.
So who knows where the future will take me? I’m excited to find out!